Astrael

A couple of years have past by

All the memories and our precious

haven't yet been forgotten, but...

it's fading from day by day from my soul

And I don't know why, even

that relationship between us

faded to black

It's been hard to even imagine that lovely smile, carved from your gorgeous looks

It's also been hard for me to accept the 'fact' that we should not be together

That day, after a long period of time, I saw you

but what I saw is someone else, you were not the person I knew

You've changed, you're not the same person I gave my heart few years back

You were not the girl full of goodness and care anymore, but...

You've changed into a miserable being

I now have nothing left to do, either talk or act

to change you back to the one I fell for,the girl of my dreams and fantasy

but frankly.......you've changed......and I should too

Taking the past as a valuable experience to the future

the future where I've made plans for.....or likely.....

I don't know whats up there for me, In the dimensions of Time and Despair......

I should just say goodbye......

Goodbye to everyone and everything that bond us together

Goodbye to everyone and everything that separated us apart

Healing a broken with the broken

It's no easy task, but there should be help

I just need to open my heart and ask for directions

to be in a place, where I can smile and laugh again

taking hold of myself, and most importantly....being myself

The advice which I gave you......

use it for good and you will find your true-self, deep inside of you....

The clock is ticking, like it always will,

Think wisely and be a better human......,

the advice I gave myself

As the title suggest.... Astrael, the sorrowful......being the last and the most powerful bell in Garth Nix's Old Kingdom Series...... After reading the book, Lirael by Garth Nix, and is fascinated by the bell concept, I wrote a sorrow, heartbreak poem under the name Astrael..... it was January of 2007..... but then, only recently, this poem, after a few modifications here and there, reflects my recent break-up, and somehow, this is what im feeling and going through right now......again, this is one of my best poems, read it, n stay alive.....

ciao, buano giornata